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If i could ask god one question RIGHT NOW it would be asking why hasn't he left my head yet?... i thought this type of stuff was supposed to go away after oh I don't know three years or so? are you trying to tell me something by keeping him around or keeping him on my mind? please make up your mind already. Give me a sign? I mean anything at this point will do. Even a bird shitting on my head, I just might then understand what you are trying say. I'm not looking for anything im not on a search or a mission i just want a heads up of some sort. If something is going to hurt can you make it hurt now instead of when im in the middle of the worst/hardest semester of my life? Just please make a move already god, your acting like a eighth grade boy trying to smoothly place his arm around a girl. If he is going to leave make him leave my head... poof!! if he is going to stay, great let him stick around as long as I don't get hurt. I just want to be in a situation where it is easy without the bitter sweet twists of mind games and reading into things. Comfortable and easy... Please?

-You can erase someone from your mind.... Getting them out of your heart is another story

Someday we'll know why i wasn't meant for you

"I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow..."
I'd like to know where this will go, so many questions never answered
three years later your still on my mind.
I don't think you will ever leave my thoughts
but someday we'll know, someday you'll know.
"Someday we'll know if love could move some mountains"

Free fall out into nothing

i wish i could just free fall. learn to not ask so many questions... Instead of asking "why?" i wish i could just let go and fall. I want to free fall and leave this world for a little while. I'm not sure what it is going to take to get me to let go but i know it is what i want the most. Life is too short and all i want to do is free fall. No questions asked. I don't want to control how or where things are going, i just want to let go