you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting (which can be anything from your house to your bitter old resentments) and set out on a truth-seeking journey (either externally or internally), and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared – most of all – to face (and forgive) some very difficult realities about yourself….then truth will not be withheld from you.” Or so I’ve come to believe.

"The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn't want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences, and then not stop running until I reached Greenland.

This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something

why don't we just live forever

If the end is so much better why don't we just live forever?
Don't tell me I'm the last one in line
Don't tell me I'm too late this time
I don't wanna live to waste another day
Underneath the shadow of mistakes I've made
because I feel like I'm breaking inside

What a night for a dance oh you know I,m a dancing machine.

Stay with 'me. i need to scream out for you but I'm down to one last breath. The moves we made we can't erase. I lost my sense of right and wrong and it feels so good to write off the rules, but I can't face it. The angel on my shoulder is haunting 'me tonight.

Bitter

So when that day comes where you can stand proud and smile your fake smile because I know it won't be true happiness you can flaunt your treasure and say it's better then anything you have ever seen better then mine. Just push the knife in and twist again. Because no one will win unless it's us together. You will see how high you always got 'me when you watch how hard I fall. We will get this right if you lower ur weapons down. Cease gunfire and let the smoke clear. 

?

So how does it work exactly... We hurt the people we love the most? Does god create two people that are compatible with eachother and place them on different parts of the earth knowing they will find eachother through fate? Or do we find that one person through life as we go along. Is the person you are meant to be with discovered and created as life goes on or is it all planned ahead of time? I'm not sure which one I believe in because I'm aware that there is always room for change. Sometimes I wonder why we even waste time dating people and breaking up if it's already planned for us. It's like we are in gods maze and each person we date and get close to, that doesn't work out is a mouse trap. I'm sure he does this to teach us and make us stronger because after all EVERYTHING happens for a reason. 
   Then you have to factor in why we hurt those we love the most. Is it this subconscious faith that we have , thinking they will always be there for you and always come back? Who knows!? Because even people reappearing back into your life isn't definant. It's fate, faith and forgiveness that will keep us moving. 

"Your fingers were tracing my sides and mine were tracing your face. We've become part of a routine so quickly, but i don't find myself getting tired of it like i should. We're laying in beds and fighting to keep our eyes open. we're restless but we're weary. we're worn but we're new."

Your skin was soft and your voice was quiet. You were speaking in whispers that only I could hear. You grabbed my hand and held on tight, kissed me in the cheek, and said that we should go. We left in a hurry and never looked back. We wandered the streets in silence and watched as our breath fell in front of us from the chill of the night. I was cold, but you were warm and you never once let go of my hand. You never let go.

care fucking free

What is it called when you don't want to fight or control anything?
Is there one word to sum it up?
Is it safe if i just roll with the punches?
is it ok if i let things work out on their own and that whatever wants to work out will?
can I do that?
for me?

Days and Days

Let it rain down and wash everything away.
I feel it's gonna rain like this for days.
And i hope that tomorrow the sun will shine,
because with every tomorrow comes another life.
In the meantime can you help me out?
it's safe to say i'm stuck again.
Trapped between life and the light.
thinking with the mind instead of the heart.
did i find the road to nowhere?
Because i keep trying to escape.

Home sweet home?

I gave my heart away a long time ago... and I never really got it back