finally it's so carefuckingfree

Meanwhile... Party and Bullshit and Party and Bullshit. Moving on me as the world ends, not taking this party too seriously but this nuclear heat is a beautiful air... you might live to tell. We rise tonight, palms to the sky.

Those days are over

Yeah I hear you talking
Don't know who you trying to flatter.
I got that chip on my shoulder

This is how I'm going to be

See, you don't seem to understand

had my mind made up a long time ago. 

Today you crossed my mind...

No one would ever know but why was today so rough? Looking through old papers reading things you wrote to me as I was a child. Why did I cry today? Seeing your hand writing made me hear your voice. so suddenly all my senses kicked in and exploded. Making tears fill my eyes. I like to think Im strong because I had someone in my life like you that helped raise me. Every time I cry, every time i want to give up or fear the future I think of you and how you fought. How you fought for 6 children and 14 grandchildren. How you fought for your life. I hear you now and I hear everything you wished for me. I know your there guiding me and when I am hurting I feel your strength helping me through. <3 p="p">

Sudden Impact

So convinced and educated in knowing I can take care of myself. Just through the rough patches in learning that no one can help you better then yourself. Just from insisting that I do it on my own...I have become stronger. Redefined by events and trauma. A victim of sudden impact to be rehabilitated into something stronger. But is there always guarantee that one can take care of themselves? Is it true that everyone needs someone to care for them? I too sometimes fear that I will fall hard and need someone to care for me, need someone to pick me up. I fear the day that I can't do it on my own. I think I fear most that when I look up from the ground no one will be above. This is why one may put up a front or be cold or afraid to get too close only to fall. FEAR in itself but only until  sudden unexplained  impact changes your whole outlook

Break Me In

I'm fighting, I don't wanna like it but you know I like it. I even know I like it. 
Used to always think I was bullet proof but you got an AK and you're blowing through.

She Wolf

"Breathing you in when I want you out , finding our truth in a hope of doubt"

It just happened right in front of me an explosion of a revelation. A shot in the dark that I'm willing to take. The she wolf will bring you to your knees with yellow eyes. Finally eyes that see clear, Finally a heart that doesn't grow cold with the moonlight. It's the run of her life, filling in the hollow spaces with something that feels so right.