Id end it before we begin

Its funny how you think I’m an idiot, its funny how you think I trust every word you say. You changed for the worse I don’t know who you are any more but im so turned off.I wanted you so bad but now all i am is disgusted. who are you? I won’t hold my breath for you to come back around. But I am fucking done. I’ve killed you with kindness only to receive nothing back. You spit on me and slapped me around. I had enough. There is noone to blame but myself for putting up so long with your mental abuse. You’re a sick twisted fuck. How could you think I didn’t know? You made a holy fool of me, and I thank you now. Your real good at what you do…. Wheel me in and push me away. Your real smooth at what you do… you make me laugh because I don’t think you realize what you do to me. Your too selfish to realize its not just you. Everything can’t always be on your terms. I’m not a rag doll to be tossed around. I won’t be here forever and you can’t just want me and be nice whenever you feel like it or whenever it’s convenient for you. Because all this…. Just isn’t convenient for me

You can take everything you can hurt me, make me cry, make me angry and curse, But you can't take my smile, and what i'm meant to do in life. It doesnt effect me anymore, I'm happy no matter what now.

" Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie "

I can't tell you what it really is but i can only tell you what it feels like. When its good its going great but when it's bad it's awful maybe our relationship Isn't as crazy as it seems maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. We fall back into the same patterns, same routine. but thats alright because i like the way it hurts. The way THIS hurts.

Got my middle finger up... cause I don't really give a fuck
I'm gonna live my whole life in the night because I don't have time to borrow