Don't go numb again

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
tears were for the weaker days
I'm stronger
But something's missing
Whatever it is, it feels like
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
And I just wanna scream

I spent every hour just going through the motions
I can't even get the emotions to come out
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout ~ri