Here's a middle finger from me to you, you'll get what's coming to you

alright.... here is a mouth full...

They say bad things happen for a reason. I'm not upset anymore, im not angry, i have no regrets although it will sure sound like it. just because one bad thing happens does not mean the world stops. Although your insides sure as hell feel like they stopped functioning .. its not the case. The clock doesn't stop there. You still have to wake up in the morning get out of bed survive and then go back to bed. Mine as well put a smile on as well as say fuck you to anyone who tries to put you back in a hole again. There comes a time in life where it is okay to be selfish. Do things that are good for yourself . Don't always stick with what is comfortable and familiar. That was a problem i had of my own. i found my comfort spot in one person and i think about it now i only stayed and kept going back because it was familiar to me. Change scares everyone, walking away is even worse. The fear of letting go is the most consuming feeling i have ever experienced. it took me some time to realize letting go is good for me and there is nothing to be afraid of because in the end i'll be okay and i will accept change. if there is anything im feeling right now... its happiness. there is a lot more life left to go :)