feeling...

You ever get that feeling where you are so uncontrollably indifferent. I almost feel nothing, i almost don't want to feel anything. What if this goes back to what it used to be. i moved from the stage of feeling everything to the stage of feeling nothing. I'm stable now, where nothing can hurt me. Once i get feeling back i may burn a little. It's not human to stay indifferent, to feel nothing. It doesn't stay like this forever. I just want to stay indifferent, to feel nothing this way just in case things go sour i won't feel anything. I guess to hurt, to feel pain and sadness is just a jolt. It is a reminder that we are alive, that we are human. We feel everything. This is the reality that settles in and tells us we need to get through it. But to be indifferent, to feel nothing is just so much easier. It's like the "fight or flight" the adrenaline rush. you feel nothing until the rush dies down.I know this is a stage, i know this won't last forever but when it wear's off i hope I'm ready, ready to feel EVERYTHING.