dayum

I never go with the wind, maybe it's time to start. I don't want a map from anyone, I want to get lost and find my own way out. You only hear half of what i say. Maybe i have to choose between what i want and what you think i need. Maybe i should think before i speak, maybe i should be patient. I should be balanced, calm and collected. I'm done trying to control things, i don't want to be torn so i'm letting things go on their own. It's something allot more of us should do. Everything happens for a reason. 

Today my friend pulled tarot cards for me and she pulled a 3 of cups as the card that represented me as an outcome to a situation. Her detailed explanation of the card was that no matter what i went through no matter what i decided for my future in the end  I wouldn't change as a person id stay positive happy  and I'd be okay in the end except for the fact that i would only grow stronger. I know Tarot cards aren't definite but with a card like that. Why not just go with the wind and see how everything works out because no matter what I'm going to be okay. I don't want to have regrets when I'm old. I don't want to look back and see how much i tried to control things and prevent events from happening. There is always a reason why certain people don't make it to your future and just sit in your past and there is always a reason why you made a decision before to bring you where you are today.